Monday, May 22, 2006

Burned Out!

Now, of course, I believe my children are blessings from above. That goes without saying. But lately I am beginning to feel what I have coined 'Mama Burn-out'. One son does a blood-curdling scream-thing to get our attention: believe me, he's got it! And the other is doing the lovely 'Huh? I-didn't-hear-you-thing'. He did this in the bakery while I was ordering Tot's birthday cake. S. kept walking away from me, which he knows is a no-no. Yep, I went and grabbed his hand, and yep he did the whole scream-cry-drop to-the-floor-thing in front of everyone. This bakery is in the old part of town, so I was the youngest by at least 30 years. Yah, no sympathy there! I think motherhood is like any job, sometimes you need a vacation. Unfortunately, I don't have any 'vacation time' to use. It seems like I do the same things over and over. Get up with the kids, change baby's diaper and tell S. to get his undies on, feed children, get children dressed, play, Tot's morning nap, feed Tot, go out to do whatever needs to be done, come home, fix lunch, naps, get kids up, feed them snacks, playtime, dinner, yada, yada, yada. As I told a friend recently, some days I feel like I got a degree and all I do is change diapers!

After all that we went through to have these children, I feel guilty saying I need a break, but I do. I really do.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

You do need a break and don't feel bad for saying so. Everyone needs one once in awhile, especially mommies. Our jobs never stop! Couldn't you get someone to take on babysitting for an afternoon for you to get a pedicure, get coffee with a friend, etc. Just get away for a bit. You need it. I do too really. I defnitely relate to your post.

Kate said...

Nothing wrong with needing a break! Thankfully, my MIL is close by when I'm having "off" days.

Thinking of you!