Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Ever Have One of Those Days....

when all you can think about is that your husband will be home in 4, 3, 2 hours to help you, and then you get a phone call from him at about 5:30PM saying he won't be leaving for another hour and a half? And not knowing that he'd be late, you actually cooked a GOOD meal while your toddler screamed," NOooooooooooo!!!!!" in the whiniest voice possible because, hey it worked last week when he was sick? Oh, and you're 8 1/2 months pregnant to boot, and said toddler knows all too well that your patience is shot and you can no longer keep up with him? Yah, that was my day.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Bev,

I totally feel better today.
I started off majorly grumpy and with bed head. I have naturally curly hair and it puffs up. Today I wore kiddie clips and it looked good. Honestly, since I had Chloe my hair hasn't seen a straightener.
I just don't bother anymore. I barely wear lipstick.

You know if you want the baby to come soon the 11th of may is a great day. That is my birthday.
I just booked a beach trip for mother's day weekend, which i personally hate mothers day.

I know how much you miss your mom.
Perhaps you should start with the therapist now to voice your concerns about PPD, I don't think you'll have too much problems, except the control issues, which I suffer from too. This morning I realize I really miss my mom. It's almost 18 months or so since she past, some days it feels like yesterday and other's feel like 100 years. I have a very analytical mind and i remember dates and things very well. This does drive me nutz. I can remember birthdays, days my mom had major medical problems and was rushed to the hospital, etc. I am feeling down though, like she abandoned me. I feel very alot at here in NC. Unforetunetly, I choose not to associate with many people, I choose not to let anyone know my deep dark secret called depression, I breifly mention to my brother I needed some help for stress. My sister knnow's everything . I wish you had a sister. i called her last week when Chloe was very sick - it was almost 11pm but i didn't hesitate to ring her. I dump on her alot and she bails me out, which is always good. I feel like I fight for independence and they treat me like a kid. I guess this is part of life.

Well, I wish I could be there to help you. If you ever want to move to NC I'll be glad to help.
I cannot babysit boys though, because they are full of 200% energy and I cannot keep up with them. Just kidding. Please feel free to vent anytime and let me know if you need anything. The paxil is still sealed in the package from the samples they gave me. Just let me know if I need to mail them. I honestly don't think the Paxil is working for me. I'm so moody and pissed off. I let loose on my boss and he just listened and offered an objective ear. I hate that, tell me I'm right and everyone else is wrong. That's all for now.

I love Ludacris, I personally listen to Eminem when I'm angry.
There's one particular song I like.

Catch Ya later - get some rest thsi weekend.
Jennifer