Friday, February 04, 2005

Sick of Being Tired!

It seems like I am tired now ALL THE TIME, no matter how much sleep I get. It is starting to get to me. I constantly feel like I am in a fog and no use to my son, who after all, just wants his mommy to play with him. I am also starting to get upset whenever Jeff mentions he is tired. I know he works hard, and probably is exhausted at the end of the week. However, I am sure no man will ever know what it feels like to be so exhausted that you can't even remember what day it is, or sometimes, where you are. When I take a nap, I often wake up so tired still, that I think it's already the next day.

I am also pissed at Jeff right now, because he was upset when I told him Steve needed a bath. Jeff has been great about taking on the bathtime activities now that it's so uncomfortable for me to bathe Steve. Lately, though, he has really been dramatic about not wanting to give Steve a bath; Jeff has acknowledged he hates giving baths. Anyway, and please do not judge me, but Jeff had not given Steve a bath since Sunday night. GASP! So one would think he would give him a bath tonight without hesitiation or the need to be reminded. No, not the case. So he's mad at me. I guess I am a freaking nag when it comes to a clean kid! Whatever! He was so dramatic about how tired he was. I do believe he is tired, but so am I and I still need to take care of our son no matter how tired I am. Believe me, making Cream of Wh*at with sliced bananas, getting his milk to him ASAP or else the whining starts, and oh, I better make sure he gets a cereal bar these day, all before 8:30 AM when I could use another say 24 HOURS of sleep because my sweet boy who is still in utero loves kicking me at midnight, are all things that I don't particularly enjoy, but that need to be done. I do them because I am happy he likes food that is good for him; I don't want to ruin that. Oh, and he needs to eat. Yah, I can be anal when it comes to clean clothes, a highchair tray that is wiped off EVERY day and not only when stuff has been stuck to it all weekend, and hands that are washed. But is giving the kid a bath such a freaking hard thing, or too much to ask. It's not like I am asking him to give ME a bath, course THAT he might LIKE.

1 comment:

Jen Taurus said...

Bev,

I'm sorry your so tired. Have you increased your paxil?
My dr increased mine about 3 weeks ago and it was killing me. Slowly. I became so fatigued I couldn't manage. I was dreading making my daughter dinner because she needed so much extra stuff, napkins, ketchup etc. I finally realized about 2 weeks to the day that the paxil was to blame. I decreased from thr 50 to the 37.5 thursday and what a different weekened I've had. I can get out bed. I actually went to three different grocery stores yesterday. Usually a huge feat for me. So, you might want to check with your dr.
My dr told me before I began the 50 that if it became too strong or too much that I can go back down to the 37.5. I'm definitly out of the woods yet so to speak.
I've had some very dark days recently. Thursday for example, I took Chloe to the Circus, came home and slept. I can hardly eat and am driniking alot of liquids. I will be seeing the dr tuesday so I'll see how it goes.

I hope you begin to feel better. I am not sure what you can do with your pregnancy to make #2 sleepy. Chloe was very active, as soon as I slept bam she was wide awake. As for Dh, it will pass over. We fight about DH having control freak tendencies. He wasn't to control things way too much. I am way more laxed, he thinks everything is a prefect formlua with the outcome of perfection. He's really bad.

Well I hope things are better I will post again tomorrow. I'm off to update my blog.

Jennifer